Last few days i have been contemplating change

Got this offer from Alkem as GM training with a decent salary hike on 12th Oct - was busy with M2L programs then

took 18 day to make up my mind that i should change, boss and many others played a important role in helping me take this step, traveled to chennai, Farast resigned an joined Ashtra at Bangalore, these things kept me swinging like a pendulum either to change or not, so finally on 1st Nov i resigned from Ranbaxy.

i have been talking to lots of people and the confusion still exists, Mr. YS and Mr. RV want me to continue, Mr VV thinks Alkem is not a good choice, few say i must go, few want me to stay back. when people say bad things about Ranbaxy - i feel like staying back, when they say Alkem is not a good option i feel like moving on, i have been requesting for a 1st Dec relieving, but yet not sure what will happen, i have left it to the end game - i too am waiting for the mystery to unveil.

its a strange feeling to let your fate hang this way, i don't know what will happen, i am comfortable with any outcome, have been thinking and acting and planning with both these outcomes in mind, planning my Dec JFW at Ranbaxy and looking for which model of car i should buy at Alkem. this is a strange state of mind form which i am operating. recognizing fully that this is a big decision and yet staying on the fence and yet operate so comfortably. i am leaving it to the end game tomorrow. just keep telling my self god will help me take the right decision

i have learnt or experienced something different about handling and managing change or have i?